I haven't posted in awhile, which I regret. I have been in much pain and very exhausted. But tonight I would like to blog even though my thoughts are scattered to the farthest ends of the earth. I have decided to move to California. I have found a coach there that will help me reach my fullest potential and achieve ultimate healing. That means taking Dominick away from his grandparents and his cousins. That thought breaks my heart. I have been mulling this over and over and over again in my heart and mind, for months. I've decided this is what is best for us. Right now. I only pray someday they will forgive me and will understand why I did it. I told my husband today that I will be moving. He didn't like it much, of course. But I believe this will be better for him than he realizes. I asked him to use our time apart to work on himself, find truth and peace for himself, while I work on me. I want to be the best mom I can possibly be to my children. I hope he can find the strength to have the same drive and goal. I am not exactly sure when the move will occur. Sometime in the early part of 2011, perhaps January, perhaps March. It just depends on how the universe opens up the way for me. All I know is that I must plan and prepare myself for it. I do know I need to make that long of a trip before my third trimester.