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Sunday, January 9, 2011

Farewell Francisco

My husband is gone.  Per my request.  I have so many mixed emotions.  I desperately wanted our marriage to work, but it was doomed from the get-go.  We didn't get married for the right reasons or out of love, and we weren't even compatible in the remotest sense.  I regret hurting him.  But I knew I had to separate us in order for me and my children to find happiness and peace in our home.  So priorities, priorities.... But here is a song for you, Juan Francisco Lopez.  I will always love you because you gave me two beautiful children.  That was the greatest gift of all.
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Closing that chapter.  Here opens a new chapter, full of hope, awe, inspiration, excitement and a serious adrenaline rush.

1 comment:

  1. Awww Tammy, that was a sad post.:( Sniff I need a Kleenex. I am sorry things did not work out for you and your husband.

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